"Promise me you'll always remember: You're
braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than
you think." ---Christopher Robin to Pooh
I saw this on facebook today and thought it was meant just for me to read. It's been one of those days for me! Standing in the bathroom, looking at my reflection today in the mirror I guess I made some sort of facial expression that my hubby asked "what are you thinking?" My response was something not nice, in fact I think it had a curse word in it. One of the hardest battles I fight is against myself. Growing up, praises from my parents were a rare occasion and I found myself striving to hear those words "so proud of you". Instead, I wasted a lot of pennies in that wishing well! So why does this still affect me today? Why do I allow the past to dictate the future? Good question! Again, like I stated before it's something that I am trying to change in my behavior, my attitude, my outlook on life. So many years, this was my best friend, my excuse to act hateful to my family, it was comfortable for me to think that I was just a stupid weak woman. It was my destiny to prove to those who said I was going to amount to nothing, that I didn't deserve a man to love me, and that I was just a dumb ass. So I'm trying to believe this quote was just for me to read, I need to dig deep within my soul and face my battles head on, with strength, with courage, and with the knowledge that I'm loved.
