Feeling blah! I really want to write something uplifting and positive, I have so many things to be thankful for. Yet sometimes I just can't do it, today is one of those days. Sorry.
Things that are stressing me
1. My hubby's happiness
2. Grant needing glasses
3. My house appraisal
4. Unorganized house
5. Friends that used to be present, now are distant
6. Paying for Mike's Master's program
7. Truck making a funny sound (transmission is my diagnosis)
8. My big fat _____!!
9. Relationship with the Almighty
10. Maddox's reading ability
11. Basketball season
12. Lily's innocence
13. Lack of good role models
14. Death
15. Church
Hoping if I write them down it will ease my mind and anxiety. God please see my words, give peace to my thoughts, and let me follow with faith. Amen
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Dream Weaver
A dream has power to poison sleep. ~Percy Bysshe Shelley
Dreams are so mysterious! For the most part, I remember my dreams every night. Another thing that I do with dreams are do-overs, at least that's what I call it. If I'm dreaming something terrible, I will wake myself up, think rationally what I would do in the situation, then go back to my dream and have a do-over. Kinda like a movie, stop it, rewind it, play it again but this time with another scene. Then if something happens in the dream that I didn't think about (ex: having a cell with no service) then the process starts all over. My hubby thinks this is awesome, I think it's exhausting!!! Yes, it's cool that I can change the outcome, but I would rather wake up and NOT go back to the nightmare.
A few years ago, my dreams were the all dramatic, unchanging, predictable soap opera. You know, the show that's the same today as it was 15 years ago. Same problems, same solutions, same type of character, but just in different locations. The character (me) was always hiding because I had seen something terrible. My solution was to run, hide, and try to find help before my life was taken by some stranger for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I had this soap opera dream for at least 10 years. Luckily, after some soul searching, Godly counseling, and determination I tackled this nightmare and faced some of the problems that had happened in my past that I was desperately trying to run from. Thankfully, my soap opera was canceled because the producer decided to pursue a different path :)
Today, my reoccurring dream is some type of torture. It usually consist of me or my family being an innocent victim to unimaginable events. The outcome isn't pleasant and for some reason I can't create a do-over because it's usually bigger than I am. Either a nuclear bomb exploding in the US, a terrorist beheading my family, or a deadly epidemic that has been released by our own government. Scary huh? I'm desperately trying to figure out what the underline problem/situation is so I again can cancel this everlasting horror movie. Until then........I'm exhausted!!!
Dreams are so mysterious! For the most part, I remember my dreams every night. Another thing that I do with dreams are do-overs, at least that's what I call it. If I'm dreaming something terrible, I will wake myself up, think rationally what I would do in the situation, then go back to my dream and have a do-over. Kinda like a movie, stop it, rewind it, play it again but this time with another scene. Then if something happens in the dream that I didn't think about (ex: having a cell with no service) then the process starts all over. My hubby thinks this is awesome, I think it's exhausting!!! Yes, it's cool that I can change the outcome, but I would rather wake up and NOT go back to the nightmare.
A few years ago, my dreams were the all dramatic, unchanging, predictable soap opera. You know, the show that's the same today as it was 15 years ago. Same problems, same solutions, same type of character, but just in different locations. The character (me) was always hiding because I had seen something terrible. My solution was to run, hide, and try to find help before my life was taken by some stranger for being in the wrong place at the wrong time. I had this soap opera dream for at least 10 years. Luckily, after some soul searching, Godly counseling, and determination I tackled this nightmare and faced some of the problems that had happened in my past that I was desperately trying to run from. Thankfully, my soap opera was canceled because the producer decided to pursue a different path :)
Today, my reoccurring dream is some type of torture. It usually consist of me or my family being an innocent victim to unimaginable events. The outcome isn't pleasant and for some reason I can't create a do-over because it's usually bigger than I am. Either a nuclear bomb exploding in the US, a terrorist beheading my family, or a deadly epidemic that has been released by our own government. Scary huh? I'm desperately trying to figure out what the underline problem/situation is so I again can cancel this everlasting horror movie. Until then........I'm exhausted!!!
Saturday, September 11, 2010
WANTED:
FULL TIME CHILD CARE AND HOUSEKEEPING POSITION -2 children ages 8 and 10 years. •Must have valid driver's license •Non-smoking environment •Daily housekeeping required •Some cooking •Transportation to and from school •Some errands •References required •Monday-Friday Approx. 40-50 hours per week •Excellent pay - including paid vacation & holidays We are looking for someone who loves children. This position would be financially rewarding. You would become a very important part of our family. Mother and Father are professionals.
Okay, if you agree that the above statement is a good way to spend your hard earned money than my suggestion is to leave my blog at this time.
Now, if you are continuing with me then I need to say welcome aboard :) This is one of my bandwagons. There are so many things wrong with the above I really don't know where to begin. So I thought I would write my own wanted ad to try and justify my thinking/beliefs.
WANTED: FULL TIME PARENTS -# of children you can handle. Must have the ability to ride a bike and a driver license would just be an added bonus •Non-smoking/non-cursing/non-yelling environment •Daily reading required •Lots of cooking involvement & experiments •Transportation to and from school or to the park •Some errands will be required to teach responsibility and kindness to others •References required from the Almighty •24 hrs/day 365 days Approx. your whole life •Excellent pay - including fun filled vacations & holidays that will form new family traditions. Looking for someone who will love their own children. This position will be greatly rewarding. You will become a very important part of your family. Mothers and Fathers who are dedicated to one another and trying to raise their own children instead of worrying about what professional title they have before or after their name.
Okay, if you agree that the above statement is a good way to spend your hard earned money than my suggestion is to leave my blog at this time.
Now, if you are continuing with me then I need to say welcome aboard :) This is one of my bandwagons. There are so many things wrong with the above I really don't know where to begin. So I thought I would write my own wanted ad to try and justify my thinking/beliefs.
WANTED: FULL TIME PARENTS -# of children you can handle. Must have the ability to ride a bike and a driver license would just be an added bonus •Non-smoking/non-cursing/non-yelling environment •Daily reading required •Lots of cooking involvement & experiments •Transportation to and from school or to the park •Some errands will be required to teach responsibility and kindness to others •References required from the Almighty •24 hrs/day 365 days Approx. your whole life •Excellent pay - including fun filled vacations & holidays that will form new family traditions. Looking for someone who will love their own children. This position will be greatly rewarding. You will become a very important part of your family. Mothers and Fathers who are dedicated to one another and trying to raise their own children instead of worrying about what professional title they have before or after their name.
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